iLikeToytles

Jul 18

😜😝💩😊😄 (Taken with Instagram)

Hi there fellow toytles =]

I’m going to switch it up. Instead of writing a novel, I’m going to keep it nice and short- maybe with this new technique: I won’t slack so much and update this more often! =]

My health is moving a long, but very slow. But it’s all good- this helps mepractice my patience =]

One thing that has not changed much: I’m still forgetful! Chemo brainnnnnn. Yeap. Or…. I like to blame it on the chemo =] hehehehe. 

I’ve been getting these 2 itches. Crazy itches. While we’re all melting outside- the only thing that’s on my noggin is:

1. GETTING SOME SNOW ON THE BOARD!!!!!

 My 2^nd itch:

-Smelling all the fresh new Nike Air Maxes ever made! Getting deprived from the new shoe smell. I NEED MY FIX!!!!!!!!!!!

Lets end this post with something we should all keep in our minds, heart, and daily grind:

“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall”

- Wisdom from Confucius 

LOVE,

your fellow toytle!

Jul 16

I got, an itch.

Hi there fellow toytles =]

I’m going to switch it up. Instead of writing a novel, I’m going to keep it nice and short- maybe with this new technique: I won’t slack so much and update this more often! =]

My health is moving a long, but very slow. But it’s all good- this helps me practice my patience =]

One thing that has not changed much: I’m still forgetful! Chemo brainnnnnn. Yeap. Or…. I like to blame it on the chemo =] hehehehe. 

I’ve been getting these 2 itches. Crazy itches. While we’re all melting outside- the only thing that’s on my noggin is:

1. GETTING SOME SNOW ON THE BOARD!!!!!

 My 2^nd itch:

-Smelling all the fresh new Nike Air Maxes ever made! Getting deprived from the new shoe smell. I NEED MY FIX!!!!!!!!!!!

Lets end this post with something we should all keep in our minds, heart, and daily grind:

“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall”

- Wisdom from Confucius 

LOVE,

your fellow toytle!

Jun 03

The Hulk.

Hello, fellow toytles!

Its been quite a while since I’ve done one of these! I’ll be honest. I’ve just been extremely sluggish and too lazy to give my fingers some exercise! =/ =] =[   

Well- I kind of want to spruce things up, and NOT talk about my health, because I own my health, NOT the other way around =]

Guess where I would like to start my updates? =]…………..the big P word….

POOOOOOOOOOP!!!!!!

Chemo has been doing a pretty decent job of allowing me to drop the ninja toytles off at the sewers like nobodys businesssss!!! But then- I usually go straight into constipation. Speaking of the C word, I’ve been constipated for 3 days now! I call this baby constipation, cause its been worse! Haha =] BUT- It’s like a ticking time bomb! Just waiting for something MASSIVE to happen! =]

But, I know it’s ALL about being patient =]

So other than being constipated, I’ve really just taken things day by day.

I work 4 hours a week, and those 4 hours a week- definitely do drain me. Sometimes I laugh at how winded I get these days, but the thought of TURTLES really just makes everything better! I am a toytle- toytles are slow, thus my situation fits perfectly!

Although I do get tired easily, working 4 hours a week- really does keep my mind stimulated! And I LOVE THAT!!!!! I know, at times its probably not the best thing for me to be working- even if its only 4 hours a week. But through God’s grace, I manage to pull through and can honestly say, “I had a good day at work!”

Speaking of God- my relationship with him is always a growing process. I’ll admit, I’ve had some pretty poopy days where I get extremely exhausted, mentally, emotionally, and physically- and I just start to let my flesh get the best of me. And when I say, “flesh”- I REALLY mean it…..!

I TURN INTO THE HULK!!!!!!!!!!! It’s scary! And then I start to become impatient! And I would say that’s the worst part of it all. Not being the hulk, but becoming impatient…

A few hours later- give or take, my mind starts to ease up, my heart feels lighter, and my spirits start to lift up. And I have God to thank! Although I go through these phases of poopness, I still manage to pull through on top and reflect on what’s really important- and that would be KEEPING MY FAITH STRONG!

God gives us all inner strength. And at times, we keep it hidden. When I get my “hulk” moments, I try my hardest to remind myself of the inner strength I carry……! Because, “With God all things are POSSIBLE”.

From me, to you:

Whenever you get “the hulk” moments, give yourself some time to reflect on what’s MOST important in life, because we all carry strength within us. It’s just a matter of time when you’re willing to reveal it to yourself! And if you haven’t revealed your inner strength, LET IT UNRAVEL!!!!!!

*I will be a better toytle, and try harder this time around to keep this thang up to date!!!!

I hope you guys have a beautiful Sunday! GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!

COWAAAAABUNGAA MY DUDES!!!!!

LOVE,

Your fellow toytle! 

Mar 31

Poop.

Hello my fellow toytles!

I know- I’ve been slacking! Poop, me!

What a better way than starting off my updates with, POOPING!

YES! FINALLY! After a 8 year stretch, wait- I mean 8 day stretch- I finally dropped the ninja toytles off at the sewers!!!!!!! =] 

On a more etiquette note:

BIG things happening this weekend! I’m getting baptized April 1^st (tomorrow)!!! *********NOT an April Fools joke*******

Thank you- family and friends- that have been supportive, loving, and caring throughout this journey of mine! AND OF COURSE GOD!!!! 

On a medical note:

Chemo has definitely been kicking my toosh! Got a bit sick this week- boogers were draining outta my nostrils like a water fountain, ears stuffed up, and that nasty stuff that makes your throat sore. But, my toytle power kicked it all to the curb cause I woke up this morning feeling like a million bucks! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!

On a Godly note:

Ready to ignite my journey through the presence of God! His glory, his faith, and his love= COWABUNGISHLY AWESOME!!!!!!!! <3

 I hope YOU have a beautiful weekend =] Take it easy, relax, and enjoy the semi- sweaty butt cracks weather! =]

LOVE,

ME =] 

Mar 10

Frienemy

Hello my fellow toytles-

Hope everyone had a blessed week!?!?

I’m feeling a bit on the “loopy” side! I’ve been forgetful lately. Just SIMPLE things- I can’t seem to recall a few seconds later. Wonder if that’s healthy for my school work? Or healthy in general? Oh wells, if you see me lost and confused at a donut shop- buy me a donut, and then take me home =]

Goals that I’ve met:

Gained 3 pounds.

Sleeping more.

Goals in progress:

Pooping.

Goals to be met:

Get baptized!

Read the bible.

Eat MORE!

I’ve learned to build a strong relationship with God, and learned to make a choice on HOW TO LIVE- after being diagnosed with Leukemia. I’ve learned how to continue living life positively and courageously! BUT- I’m eager to learn about the bible! To find a Church Home, and to get baptized! READY TO GET THIS GOAL STARTED! =]

On a personal note-

I’ve been feeling more tired than usual lately, more sleepy, and more constipated =[ Chemo= Frienemy! Chemo: my friend and enemy at the same time! What a stinker! But it’s all cool, the toytle juices will make me a much strong person- later! =] So, BRING IT ON CHEMO!

 ^that’s my BRING IT ON/CONSTIPATION face =] 

So- I’ve decided to join the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society- Light the Night Walk event!

The event will take place on November 10^th (I know, we still have plenty of time)

But- I’ve created a team:

TEAM TOYTLE! So, click on the link if you’re interested in participating! LETS RAISE AS MUCH MONEY AS WE CAN TO FUND RESEARCH! COWAAAABUNGGGAAA MY DUDES!

http://pages.lightthenight.org/dm/Phoenix12/TeamToytle

Alright, hope everyone has a beautiful weekend! Enjoy the weather! =] 

*Remember to keep it toytleicious and embrace all the beautiful blessings that are surrounding us! 

LOVE,

ME

Mar 04

SHC LOVE!!!!!

I am beyond blessed to have such beautiful people be a part of my life and this journey of mine. I can’t thank you guys enough for the support, love, and encouragements!!!!!! All I can say is, COWABUNGAAAA MY DUDES and thank you for supporting my love for poop- I definitely will be pooping!!!!!! =] 

*Special thanks to my mama bear- her beyond delicious salsa that raised money to help with my medical bills!

*Special thanks to EVERYONE at the pharmacy: Mama Bear, Megan, Angie, Darla, Azhar, Courtney, Rachel B, Rachel H, Jale, Sandy, Dave, Charlotte, Chris, Julie, Michele, Jen, Tina, Mike, Charlene, Lily, Jesse, Steven, Amanda, Austin, Nona, Simon, Paragi, Mark, Brett, Veronica, Joyce, Lanni, And- to the few names my brain forgot to mention (if so, I truly apologize!) Just know that I want to thank EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU GUYS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!!!! God Bless You!!!!!!!!!!

God is GREAT! COURAGE, FAITH, AND LOVE!!!!!!!!

All of you, have touched my heart- and have inspired me to continue spreading my words through God’s grace! 

LOVE,

ME

Mar 02

Pure Bliss.

Hello my fellow toytles-

BREAKING NEWS:

I finally POOPED today! Was going on a 6-day stretch of no poo! In my world- that’s like not pooping for 6 years!!!!!!!!

This calls for a celebration, YES!!!!!

Today=BLISS.

Keeping God in my heart. Ready to spread my love rapturously through God’s wisdom!!!

- Embracing the QUALITY of life, NOT measuring the quantity of bad news vs. good news. Quantity consist of numbers- that includes a price tag, WHY PAY!?!?!

- Allow your heart to desire the quality of life- because it brings you priceless moments!

Hope everyone has a blissful, blessed, toytleicous weekend! TOYTLE POWER MY DUDES! 

COWAAAABUNGGAAAAAAAAA!

Picture of the day- Thank you my fellow toytle, Lisa: for such a beautiful, loving, and supportive letter! Not to mention- the toytleicious picture! 

LOVE,

ME

Feb 29

Leap of Faith.

Hello my fellow toytles-

Your kind words, your empathy, your support, and your positive feedbacks- makes me feel BEYOND blessed! My heart is flooded with your guys love- and it’s such an exhilarating feeling! 

It feels GREAT to crawl out the toytle shell and open up to you guys! Praise God!!!!!!!!

John (16:33)- “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

^REAL TALK!!! This world is full of tribulations- but fight, with courage and love! =] Praise the Lord, where struggles and difficulties appear- rejoice in his love!!!! 

Well- on a more personal note: My white blood cells aren’t budging! I mean I like to over-achieve and everything, but c’mon leukemia! I give you permission to tone it down a notch!!!!!!

Did a few hours of chemo today:

Things that accompany me-

*Comfy socks and chocolate sprinkles Dunkin Donuts. I’m living the life huh? =]

I’m having some heart complications- my heart, likes to over achieve as well. And it’s putting up a fight with chemo! Grab your donuts- cause there’s some competition going on! BUT, throughout all of this, I know God is shining his love brightly in my life!!!! And that brings a smile upon my face! Knocking down those barriers, and allowing courage to kick fear to the curb! Ain’t nothing God, medicine, and positive attitudes can’t fix! 

Well, my fellows- I’m feeling like my poop has- pooped on me!!!! Got my ninja toytle jammies on, snuggling with my ninja toytle blankie in my toytleicous bed! Time to let the toytle juices do their job! Exhaustion defines my moment right now- but ready to start tomorrow with some smiles, farts, and courage! 

Hope everyone had a beautiful-blessed day! God bless you! 

COWAAAABUNGGGAAA MY DUDES!

P.S. Picture of the day: Sent by my fellow toytle Cyril

Embrace life- because where God is present, possibilities are present =]

LOVE,

 ME

Feb 24

Power of Prayers.

Hello there my fellows!

For those that don’t know me very well, there are two main things you should know- I like Toyltes and I enjoy pooping!

And for those that aren’t quite aware of my current circumstances: I was diagnosed with Leukemia about a month and half ago. 

Trust me, fear has crossed my mind PLENTY of times, worries has overwhelmed me, and constipation has sneaked up on me! But I’m allowing God to take care of me, and leaving my worries at his feet!

To those that are closes to me, know I’ve been hiding in my toytle shell. Feeling like I’m not quite ready to come out and share my story! But, I’m taking a bold step- and sharing my journey with you! It’s truly amazing the relationship you learn to build with God. Don’t get me wrong, I’m struggling! But when you learn to open up your heart and allow God’s love to seep into it- something so difficult- becomes easy. I’ve never really allowed myself to build a relationship with God- not until these last few months- and the past month it has been STRONGER than ever! It’s such an invigorating feeling!!!!!!!

Denial is an easy “choice” to make, because at the time it makes the situation better. Anger is an easy feeling to choose- because at the time it “feels good”. But we should remember: Life is beautiful- with fear, anger, frustration, sadness, joy, and dwelling. Life wouldn’t be “life” if these aspects weren’t a part of it. And I believe a lot of you can relate to me: how a lot of times our “wants” overcome our “needs”, how we set expectations for others, how we fuss over the little things, and how there has been plenty of times where we take things for granted. And once something drastic happens, like cancer- you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom. And then you question LIFE. But- it’s the struggles that appear in our lives that help us realize the inner strength we carry! 

For those that know me well, know that I’m stubborn and a fighter! But my faith in God has allowed me to ACCEPT things as they are now: cancer may define my current circumstances right now, chemotherapy may dictate how I physically feel, but at the end of the day- No matter how sick to my stomach I feel, God has allowed me to see light, where darkness is present. 

Here are a few words that I would like to share with you that I’ve shared with a few of my friends:

I believe that I have been able to allow God to seep deep into my heart and allow him to shape my surroundings. Disappointment is NORMAL because, God created us as HUMANS…..and as HUMANS we are bound to run into wants that leads to expectations and that leads to disappointments. But because of the love God allows you to build with him- he shows you every single day that- life IS a struggle. Life can become fearful. But at the end of the day. During all those struggles….that love you’ve built for him. Overcomes ALL. It might take a while. But it happens….God has a path for all of us, and he allows us to be consciously aware of our surroundings because he made us out to be INDIVIDUALS to glorify him- which gives us responsibilities as well to TAKE ACTIONS in our own hands! My own personal struggles right now has inspired me to become creative and spread my personal message to others-

I’m choosing to live by a personal message that has helped me get through the toughest times-

LIVE COURAGEOUSLY….

God has allowed me to seek courage, where fear is present. I allow myself to feel “sad” or “upset”, but then I push those feelings aside because it can become very tiring- and realized that we are blessed: To have a heart that beats, and to breath such beautiful air (disregard the pollution)- that it’s a shame to let sadness dictate the way your day turns out. Instead, I’ve learned that seeking courage will turn a “poopy” day into a beautiful day!

I want to thank you, for taking the time out of your day to read my personal struggles and hope that my personal views on life can help guide you through any struggles you may be going through! I would greatly appreciate it if, you kept me in your prayers, as will I! The Power of Prayer is truly astonishing!

For those that have been through all of this with me since the beginning- my family and close friends: I want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart. Allowing me to cry, allowing me to have a shoulder to lean on, and allowing me to pour out my heart to you guys! There are truly no words to describe how thankful I am to have you a part of my life! I am truly blessed to have you! You guys have been a huge part of my process of building courage! I want you guys to know I love you immensely!

*No matter how tough things may seem, or the struggles that are present, always remember the blessings that are surrounding you!*

I’m ready to put up a fight! I mean c’mon- all these toytle juices their pumping into me is doing something, right?! Absolutely! COWABUNGA MY DUDES!!!!!!     

God Bless You!

LOVE,

ME